Yeah, it's been a long time since I posted, but I really didn't feel like it. But I read a lot of your entries, guys, so I guess I still know what's been going on in your lives.

And yes, I was in Dublin: a two-week language vacation. And it was pretty awesome.

( Cockles and mussels, alive alive oh! )

At our last schoolday (friday) I read that there was a swine flu quaratine regarding the student appartments in UCD (Univerity College Dublin) exactly where we were staying. But except from the bottle of sterilizing gel we found in the entrance hall there was no sign of that.
We'll see, right?

Yeah, it's this time of the year again: PRIDE!

The date for PRIDE PARADE is the 27th june and this year we decided to celebrate big (or at least bigger than in 2008). We have beds for eight people, so don't worry about pricy hostels and we also offer something to eat and to drink. (Though we probably can't feed eight or more people if it comes to that, but we'll see into it when we know how many of you will come here.) We also will pick you up from trainstation or airport or if that is not possible, we'll give you a description how to find here. So here comes the question:

WHO WANTS TO VISIT?

I'm so excited, guys, you have no idea. It'll be fun. We made plans already and I am really are ready for Party and Fun and all that jazz. :)

Not to mention meeting you (again). *huggels*

Yes, it's been a while since my last entry. It's been going so much on and everytime that happens - and believe me, it happens a lot these days - I'm getting out of posting mood.
That doesn't mean I don't read your entries, I really do, but I can't bring myself to post - often I am not even in the mood to comment. I hope that is ok ... can't help you if not.

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What happened?
First of all ... did I ever tell you about my uncle? If not, then long story short: He hates me. Because my grandparents gave me money during my studies. It's not as if they aren't very generous to him - they are -, but he hates that I get money as well, so ... yeah, basically he hates me. I remember him picking a fight over half an eggcup of salt or talking behind my back. His oldest son doesn't talk to me and I have no idea why (because we really didn't spend any time together - so it can't be that I did something to him).
Now I found out that his youngest son, which I haven't seen in many years, is a student in one of my classes. I would not have found out if it weren't for his exceptional nick name.
So yeah, I don't know if you can imagine, but that was really too much for me. I broke down and cried in front of my supervisor and the poor man was so helpless and asked what happened like a hundred times. I told him, that my cousin is in one of my classes and that I have a big problem with his father, but just couldn't go on and tell the whole story. So I really hope he doesn't think about ... something worse than a fight over money.
Whatever: My supervisor reacted pretty cool. He promised to not give me this class for regular teaching and if I think it is too much he even will change my timetable for hospitation and test teaching.
Still it is a pretty fucked up situation and I don't even know if my cousin knows who I am. On the other hand: I now have the chance to see him and get to know him a little better, so that's a chance as well, isn't it?

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Drama won't go away.

For every solved problem or "situation" there is one that refuses to make progress. And we better don't talk about the new ones. Untill now fortunately there's been nothing that can't be fixed, but ... it's tiring.

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That made me think about my life and what I gained so far and what I didn't. About friendship and family and drama and if I'm happy or not and all that jazz.
Made me pondering ... and I wonder if that's a good or a bad thing.

Don't know if you noticed, but this entry is about my private life ... ok, seems like at the moment I don't have much, because holyshit school is stressful, but there were quite a few really nice things happening a few weeks away and I wanna share them.


For example that I was in Duesseldorf in january to visit my little sister. And I have to admit that this town grew on me a lot. It's still not my kind of city and I can't imagine living there, but it sure got its moments.
Imagine sunday afternoon and a really nice Altstadt (old part of a city), the sun was shining and made the Rhein a shiny, glittering thing. And then on the pier with the glittering water in the background there was this guy and his grand piano (Flügel), he played brilliantly. A few corners into the town there were other musicians as well - all playing very well. I could have stayed and listened forever.
And ... I met sis' friends. A couple of metal guys - all leather and rocker wear, long hair and beards. And let me tell you: I've never in my life seen a group of nicer and more cuddly and lovely kids. They were open minded and talkative and so supercute. I just loved them all.
One of them actually asked me at one point what I was doing. And I was pretty embarassed with me having such a conservative job and all, but he didn't seem to mind. I then asked him what he was doing and I could not have been more suprised: he works in financing and controlling at the job center.
Yes, bad nairie for thinking in clichés so much. I really should have known better, right?


And then there was zartherbess birthday. We brunched and it was really nice and reminded me that I should do that more often: meeting A. as well as go to brunch. *nods*


AND there was the fucking DEUTSCHE FILM BERLINALE PARTY - you know the one where you need an invitation and where all movie stars and business bosses go. cassiopaya81 took me and it was ... overwhelming. We didn't see stars, but then again we didn't go looking - I'm pretty sure there were some of them in the crowd. But we just enjoyed the luxury and talked. And it would have been a pretty amazing evening even without the free haute cuisine and expensive whines, but that was the icing on the cake.


Oh and seems like everyone is moving to Wedding these days (the district of Berlin where we live): spiritcrow came last month and thefabone and zartherbes are following in a few weeks.


Other than that: DRAMA is going on in our circle of friends and I tend to call it the CK-drama (no, unfortunately there is no Chris Kane involved), because there is Drama between C and K every other week. Now it's more complicated, because there is also an CS Drama (no, not Counterstrike and sure as hell no cyber sex either).
S thinks we should sacrifice something to THE DRAMA, so it just goes away. (Unfortunately it doesn't listen, if someone says: Go AWAY! So, it's time for something more drastic.)


@ evil_trisha and spiritcrow: *just hugs*

Hi folks,
yes, I'm alive (I wonder how many entries of mine begin with that phrase, must be a lot).

As some of you might know there was a lot going on in my life in the past few weeks. I started my Referendariat and most of it is exciting and cool.

Last wednesday our seminar met for the first time and let me tell: it couldn't have been a better combination of people. We're nine Referendare (I already knew three of them from university) and we get along sooo good. All of them are open minded and real fun. No drama at all. And I somehow wait for the bomb to be dropped, because seriously: Can so much harmony be really true?

The school I'll be working at is not overwhelming. It seems like they're pretty old school. You know the type were the teacher is god in comparison to students and the classes center around the teacher and not around the student. They don't do pedagogic experiments or try new didactic methods. They just don't.
Aside form that they seem pretty unorganized and not so fond of Referendare at all, and it seems like I have to beg my way through hospitations and observed teaching. I ask the organizer about classes on my own (we are supposed to have at least 2), but he answered that this would be an organisational problem, because he already did the class schedules and it is not possible to change them.
Thank you very much, you only knew for about three weeks that I was coming to your school. HMPF!

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Beside my professional life there was a personal one, too. And maybe I'll tell you about that later, but now I'm off buying birthday gifts ... again. And I'm really not sure if people maybe reschedule their birthdays into january/february this year, just to keep me busy. It feels like the 57.th birthday gift I have to pick this year.

So, yes, I'm back. Maybe you didn't even notice, because I do not post very often, but I was without internet the last days. I won't bore you with details, but after formatting everything at least internet is working now - no sound though, but I guess there's ALWAYS a problem, right?

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The last year ended like it has been: There were loads of good times and good things happening, but there were although a few major bad things. Let's just say: New years eve was an experience. caesaria82 and luthien82 were visiting and ladybanteerin, kaoru_is_here, shivaluna and C&K came to the party and we had really fun.
But we also had to change our party location about 90 minutes before midnight (because of kindergardener's behaviour of some people) and I learned the effects of pepper spray from experience. Don't ask.
So yeah, you might understand if I say it was a great metaphor for the last year.

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2009 has been a rollercoaster until now ... and what a good one.

Look at all the new and shiny things people gave me!
- got new shiny cell phone with a mediaplayer, lots of games, a fantastic camera and lots of cool shit inside (gift of my brother)
- new car ... her name's Josephine (Josy) and I should take pictures and post them, because she is SOOO beautifull - am very sorry for Joshcar though (oh how I love that car), but since he isn't sold yet, I just use them both and feel extremely decadent. ;) (gift of my grandfather, because he just said so and I couldn't talk him out of it)
- new laptop - will arrive tomorrow (also a gift of my grandpa - for the 30th birthday of mine)
Ok, to be exact: Only the laptop is new-new, Josy and the cell are not so new anymore, but still shiny and new to me, so what the heck!
Yeah, I feel very taking and not so much giving atm, but since I talked with my grandpa about the money-thing a thousand times before and I'm always losing the discussion and since my brother would have given his phone away anyway, my conscience is (halfway) clean. ;)

I also got a confirmation about my traineeship - and I'm so excited, because ... it's the real thing now, right? Real students, real teaching and not talking about teaching theory ... omg.

AND: thefabone is moving to Berlin! YAY!
And I'm really really really hoping I'm able to say the same for luthien82 in near future. *grabby hands* Does that make me selfish?

Die gesamte Lehre der Wirtschaftswissenschaften lässt sich mit einem Satz zusammenfassen: Maximiere deinen Nutzen, oder auch mathematisch ausgedrückt: max U(x).


Wenn man jetzt also die Wahl hat, auf dem Weg zur U-Bahn die Treppe oder die Rolltreppe zu nehmen, kann man das ganze in Nutzenfunktionen packen, die so aussehen: UT und UR.

Jetzt gehen wir davon aus, dass UT von zwei Faktoren abhängt, die als Resultat aus dem Treppesteigen hervorgehen: nämlich Schönheit (schlanke Figur) und Gesundheit (Fitnesseffekt). Allerdings sind das erst zukünftige Resultate, was bedeutet, dass sie laut Kapitalwertrechnung abgezinst werden müssen. Also haben wir (wenn wir von einem linearen Zusammenhang ausgehen): UT = (a*Schönheit + b*Gesundheit)/(1+r)t, wobei natürlich r der Realzins und t die Zeit sind.

UR hängt ebenfalls von zwei Faktoren ab: der individuellen Fleiß/Faulheit-Relation und der Müdigkeit. Da der Erwartungswert der Fleiß/Faulheit-Relation allerdings gegen 1 geht, im Mittel also individueller Fleiß und Faulheit sich im Mittel die Waage halten, hängt UR nunmehr nur von der Müdigkeit ab, wir haben also: UR = c*Müdigkeit.

Und manchmal, wenn man sich wochenlang mit Lernen abgequält hat und von einem wunderbaren Musical kommt, ist es einfach so:

URolltreppe > UTreppesteigen


(Und wenn jetzt noch irgendwer nicht weiß, was ich mit der Überschrift gemeint habe ... Lies dir bitte den Post nochmal durch!)

How's your gaydar?

You remarkably scored 85%
You personally got 17 of the 20 people correct and were better at recognizing guys than girls. Overall, you guessed better than 94% of all test takers.

Yeah, I'm late ... but ... yeah, I don't even have an excuse.

Anyway:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY novafairy!!!

Wish you all the best and another great year, Sweety! *hugs*

Is it too much asked for to be fair?

Yesterday evil_trisha told me that someone tried to cheat at the voting for the summertime-challenge on http://www.remus-sirius.de. In between a few minutes there were several votings for the same story. Same ID, slightly different names and mail-accounts (and I think most of them don't even exist) and I really ask myself: WHY DO PEOPLE SUCH A THING?

What do they get if they cheat? That doesn't prove that a story is good, does it?

Thoght about consequences and although I am not sure if the author of said story is the cheater (to be honest I really doubt it), maybe we should disqualify the story if something like that happens again.

The thing that bothers me most is that I got the feeling the cheater thinks we're stupid and wouldn't notice it.

GOSH FOLKS, get some brain ... and some sense for fairness, too, kthx!

Sooo großartig:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/frogspace/86140.html?view=710268#t710268

Rating: PG13
Disclaimer: I just wanna play!
Thanx to: Beta-magicians Trisha and Annabeth
Dedicated: Sandra aka scatterheart, because I love her very much and she's going through some shitty times right now; my brother
Oh and: Trisha wrote Sirius POV and it's good. Go and read it: here!


( Feels like the end )

Westerwave sagte gerade, er will keine Ampel.
Rot/rot/grün ist ausgeschlossen.
Merkel schließt eine große Koalition aus.

Also Leuts, es sieht VERDAMMT nach Neuwahlen aus.

*heul* ICH WILL NICHT MEHR!

Irgendwie fühle ich mich verpflichtet, dazu noch etwas zu sagen ... und zwar auch wenn die meisten meiner Friends meine polititsche Orientierung kennen dürften.

Ich wähle die SPD, da
- ich der CDU in der Arbeitslosenfrage genausowenig zutraue, das Problem zu lösen (das Hartz-Konzept ist ein Gemeinschaftswerk von SPD und CDU ... was beweist, dass das Problem wohl auch von der CDU falsch angegangen wird)
- ich wirklich gar keine Lust auf Studiengebühren habe (ich bin dagegen, und zwar auch dann, wenn man mir bescheinigen würde, dass es mich gar nicht mehr betrifft; und zwar aus 2 Gründen: einerseits möchte ich, dass auch meine Kinder noch gebührenfrei studieren und dann finde ich das Konzept rein wirtschaftlich betrachtet absolut unausgegoren und fatal, denn wie man es dreht und wendet, es werden Menschen vor einem Studium zurückschrecken - und zwar besonders Leute aus ärmeren Haushalten (und von denen studieren btw. im Moment schon, auf den Europa-Vergleich bezogen, viel zu wenige in Deutschland); wenn man sich jetzt noch anschaut, welche Bildungsgruppe keine/wenige Probleme mit Arbeitslosigkeit hat, nämlich die Akademiker, dann ist klar, dass sich Studiengebühren fatal auf die Wirtschaft auswirken werden - leider scheint bisher nur die FDP wirklich begriffen zu haben, dass man in die Bildung investieren muss, statt zu versuchen, sie zu vergolden)
- ich für den Frieden bin (als Pazifist sollte ich das wohl auch sein) und absolut gegen einen Kuschelkurs mit Bush (dieser Mann hat in seiner bisherigen Amtszeit 2 unnötige Kriege angefangen)
- ich gegen eine "familienfreundliche" Politik bin(da das im Endeffekt nicht wirklich "familienfreundlich" bedeutet, sondern eher gay- und single-feindlich)
- ich denke, dass die SPD mit ihrem Reform-Kurs auf dem richtigen Weg ist (und auch wenn sie Fehler gemacht haben und ich viele der Reformen als unausgegoren und falsch (zumindest in einigen Punkten) erachte, ist der Weg der richtige - und aus Fehlern lernt man; wichtig ist, dass man den Mut hat, notwendige Reformen anzugehen und nicht den Kopf in den Sand steckt, wie die CDU dies in den 90er Jahren getan hat).

Ok, ich könnte noch ewig Argumente aufzählen, aber die genannten decken letztlich das ab, was mir wirklich wichtig ist ... mal schauen, was das jetzt morgen wird.

Go straight to paddies' LJ. She made new icons.

SOOO GOOD!

Ok, MEME-time. I've seen this one in sooo many LJ's (for example lennongirls and spikewtbs) so I really can't tell where I've seen it first.

The Rules
First, write down the names of 12 characters. Then read and answer the questions.
You can't look at the questions (or click on the cut) until you write down the 12 characters you're going to use.

1. Justin Taylor
2. Thomas Hanson
3. Vickie Miner
4. Neo
5. Aragorn
6. Lois Lane
7. Louis de Pointe du Lac
8. Brian Kinney
9. Virgilia Hazard
10. Rüdiger von Schlotterstein
11. Jack Bauer
12. Remus Lupin

( questions under the cut )

First of all: thank you all for you good wishes.

Then: Yes, I have pneumonia. But please don't worry, I'm on the best way to healing. And although I still have a very sore throath and feel my lung with every breath I do and am coughing like woah, I'm feeling not bad.

The fever is gone (and with it my fever-dreams), I'm able to sleep more than 45 min in a row and I don't feel THAT weak anymore.

My Doc said I should rest A LOT, but I will be ok soon.

At the end of the next week I'll go to x-ray and let them take blood samples again and that should be it.



Oh and through my fight with the pneumonia I decided to quit smoking. YEY me!

Happy happy happy

BIRTHDAY 

teh_jules

I wish you all the bestest, you know, and really think that you should stay just the way you are.
May your muse never went away and your days be happy.

Hope to see you again soon, Honey! *hugs*

OH MY GOOOOOSH! *bouncy*

We have a user-record today. "We" as in evil_trishas and my little fanfiction-site http://www.remus-sirius.de . We had 66 real views today, take look at this.

Maybe you'll say now: Ok, it is not THAT good. But you know, for a site which is not only in german, but also dedicated to one special pairing in one special fandom (and this pairing is whether the most famous pairing nor the most famous slash pairing) it's enormous!

And ... yeah, I'm proud of evil_trisha and me. Maybe I shouldn't but I can't help myself: I am!